I feel weak and somehow lost. This feeling of failure is so unfamiliar to me, I'm not used to it. The state where I am now feels so foreign, so distant for me... Last night, I was tempted to question Him and His plans for me. As I write this blog post, I am still in pain and in tears... for losing or failing on something that I really want and have been waiting for... but you see God really works in mysterious ways just like all these WHYs scattered all over the city.
I believe the Lord has a better plan for me. He knows that I am not yet ready for that one thing that I really desire... I don't know how I will react now if not for the Bible passages as well as Chinkee's sharing I recently read in RICH GOD, POOR GOD. I started reading this book last Easter Monday afternoon and it was only last night that it became very meaningful to me after receiving a (heart) breaking news.
Reading this book was a wake-up call... not only about money matters but also about my faith and how I perceived the Lord Almighty. It also opened some hidden wounds of the past yet it also help me heal and understand everything that happened to me these past days.
I believe it was also in God's plan that I finish reading this book while I cope with this feeling of great lose because at the end, He still wants me to prosper!
I finished reading the book around lunch time earlier and found these provoking questions at the end...
Just like a tightrope walker, we must master the art of maintaining balance
while walking on a high-tensioned wire."
- Chinkee Tan
I am holding on to God's promise of prosperity and trust Him with all my heart.
Let me share this bible verse I read last night as I question God and His plan.
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